Teeheehee...

And so I met up with Qudut.

She and I must study. Ein couldn't come with us karna dia kerja.

Cika stays very far from us and Nanthini, I suppose Mummy wont allow her...

But never mind...

I was very studious.

Very engrossed in CTR. (oh, just so you know, the abbreviation CTR stands for Customer Relation)

hmmm...somehow, I couldn't stay focus..I don't know why but its just so difficult to make my eyes stay on the lecture notes I was reading.

Please don't ask me why tapi gw bener bener gak tau.

Now, as I'm blogging, I'm still reading my lecture notes and trying to squeeze them inside my god-darn brains.-Let's leave God outta this...

Kasihan deh gw.

"...and i don't wanna miss a thang..."

OK...here's the thing.

Today, I'm in a streak of dilemma.

I enjoy being alone now. I enjoy having all the time in the world to myself.

I miss being me. Not being someone Else's.

I miss spending time by myself.

I enjoyed the companion of Nur Aishah, herself.

Its just me.

Just me.

I know it sounds really crazy but I want it all back and I don't mind letting everything else go just to get 'ME' back.

I don't know the answers to several question when I was probed, the whole idea went like, How am I suppose to love one, when I don't know how to love myself?

Tell me of the beautiful things that I've seen myself attaining?

Have I ever told myself..."you look very cantik..."

Or..."you're the best babe!..."

You may think..."eh...Si Nura ni...giler ke?"

No...I'm not having any sort of disorders with my personality or self-being...(except my obsessive compulsive-ness....)

but I just want to be in love with myself all over again. At least I knoow I won't hurt myself, I won't turn my back against myself.

I wanna go wakeboard, I wanna go ride-dirty..heh...

But now, I need to log off, and study.

ciao!

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