One Of The Many Beautiful Things I'm In Love With.
(Top To Bottom: crappy photos taken while waiting for the perfect time to leave school,Qush, Ein and Nanthini and That's Cuppy, My needs at home and Stacy!)Cool ya? I'm in love with the above!
Yes...today, I am super early for school because the whole entire freaking day on Monday, I slept. Slept my way through, did not shower, did not eat, just drank Japanese green tea and soybean, trust me, the concoction did not work! I tried to maintain the acid level in my plastic tummy by drinking soybean and detoxifying myself with Japanese green tea = I had a hard time shitting and my anus hurts!!!! Darn!
I'm not working today, that gives me more time to sleep again today, and apparently its "crime night" on Tuesday nights. I'm watching CSI while I'm uploading this entree.
I have since decided on somethings which I think would be good enough to let it stay the way it is. Yes, I have a hater now, and I don't wish to be specific on who that being is, because I used to love him that much. Okay,I shall not brood over unpleasant memories. Because it will definitely be one of the reasons I'm braking down and trying to get a grip of myself over it.
Dude,I have many other BEAUTIFUL reasons unto why I should be surviving.
Dig it!
The greatness of having the perfections in life is nothing compared to those little yet stupid quarrels I used to have in the past. You win, I lost. I lost many many things.
But I'm gaining all of it back. I am. Trust me.
I may not be that person who will flabbergast you in anyway anymore. But I'm making another flabbergasted by the simple things I do.
I would like to extend heartfelt gratitude, which means Thank You, for all the helps you've been rendering and I'm glad things happened for a reason. It makes me learn and grow to be a much better person. I will now know how to avoid stupid mistakes which has happened in the past when I was there. With you.
Its utterly disturbing that I'm living life with it all replaying,I just hope it wont happen again with another person.
Let me live in denial, I don't miss you.
At least it keeps the distance perfect enough so that I don't break down crying, saying I still need you around. The new one may not be as great as you. But he's just there to see and make sure I live life to the fullest with the wise choices and decisions I'd make. Because he knows you're still one of the reasons why I'm surviving each day besides acknowledging the fact I have to survive for Mum and many other BEAUTIFUL reasons. Like I've said,
But I'm gaining all of it back. I am. Trust me.
I may not be that person who will flabbergast you in anyway anymore. But I'm making another flabbergasted by the simple things I do.
I would like to extend heartfelt gratitude, which means Thank You, for all the helps you've been rendering and I'm glad things happened for a reason. It makes me learn and grow to be a much better person. I will now know how to avoid stupid mistakes which has happened in the past when I was there. With you.
Its utterly disturbing that I'm living life with it all replaying,I just hope it wont happen again with another person.
Let me live in denial, I don't miss you.
At least it keeps the distance perfect enough so that I don't break down crying, saying I still need you around. The new one may not be as great as you. But he's just there to see and make sure I live life to the fullest with the wise choices and decisions I'd make. Because he knows you're still one of the reasons why I'm surviving each day besides acknowledging the fact I have to survive for Mum and many other BEAUTIFUL reasons. Like I've said,
Life isn't tied with a bow, but its still a gift. Setbacks aren't a personal failure to me. It'll just be challenge for me to keep improving myself so that things will get better, going alongside my stride.
Thank you very much for the beautiful things.
Make us a lesson.
Lesson learnt so that those negativity don't happen anymore.
As for now, I think I'd be better off with just being in love with me. I'd probably didn't love myself enough that's why I allowed situations and unhappy incidents to just take control of ME.
I'm not being ignorant, just simply complying to what He has set in for me. Because I know things happens for a reason. A good one at that! Reasons like making you grow and live through it all easily and comfortably. And Learn!
Mama told me this over tea the other time I met up with her.
" If we don't make mistakes, How would we know that we did something wrong? If we don't fall down, how would we know that its not safe to walk there? If we don't get hurt, how would we know that the learning and experiencing process is painful enough. Because that's just the way it is. Because its true, you will never learn if you never known what the cause of those pain were."
-Thank You mama. I love you.
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Okay, Finally Mia told me that my blog entree can be compiled into a novel or something. Or probably motivational or even self-help books. I could make million bucks out of it!
Ya right.
What the fuck?
Then again, it gives me the pleasure of having the patience to actually penned my pondering and make a good deal out of it all. I just hope them readers have the patience of reading it all.
Thank You.
Love,
Ayesha
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