Oh yes..
What a Saturday.
Believe it or not.
I'm stuck at home, no plans, nothing.
I thought of going for sheesha?..
Then again my kaki's busy la today.- Brengsek.
Kemarin, went to Cck,Lot1 Qudut's boyfriend had a night's off from camp and its been such a long time I met new people just like that.
Socialising wasnt that bad after all I figured.
Really.
and they went like..."Luqman?"
go figure la.
Okay...recovering a week ago.
I had shits to clear up and somehow, Ive become more confuse than before.
Darn.
I dont know how to put this in words but simple as it goes, I think Im in love with myself all over again and I didnt wish to love another.
why?..
How come things end up like this, dont ask me but damn...its very disturbing...
When Im with me.I feel so so good...better than ever.
But when Im with __ , I feel like Im lying to myself. Living in denial. Pretending to be the old me but in fact Im not.
Dont ask me why. but...there's been many many days I did my own ponderings and all.sit and really thinks to myself what makes me very happy and brings the best out of me...
Just having the rest of everything to myself.
He had asked me why?...
why...why?...
My answers remained.
I just wanna be by myself.
Its not that I dont love you anymore but I'm losing out on all my own good times and the things I should have been doing when Im not with you.
I make myself strong. I give myself the strength I want.
Wake up every morning and say Alhamdulilah that I've woken up this morning to seefor myself what He has in store for me.
Its just the little nitty-gritty things that Ive been missing out on and I wanna find it all by myself...
Anyway...Here's another thing to catch up on.
He's back. from 3 years ago.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
What a Saturday.
Believe it or not.
I'm stuck at home, no plans, nothing.
I thought of going for sheesha?..
Then again my kaki's busy la today.- Brengsek.
Kemarin, went to Cck,Lot1 Qudut's boyfriend had a night's off from camp and its been such a long time I met new people just like that.
Socialising wasnt that bad after all I figured.
Really.
and they went like..."Luqman?"
go figure la.
Okay...recovering a week ago.
I had shits to clear up and somehow, Ive become more confuse than before.
Darn.
I dont know how to put this in words but simple as it goes, I think Im in love with myself all over again and I didnt wish to love another.
why?..
How come things end up like this, dont ask me but damn...its very disturbing...
When Im with me.I feel so so good...better than ever.
But when Im with __ , I feel like Im lying to myself. Living in denial. Pretending to be the old me but in fact Im not.
Dont ask me why. but...there's been many many days I did my own ponderings and all.sit and really thinks to myself what makes me very happy and brings the best out of me...
Just having the rest of everything to myself.
He had asked me why?...
why...why?...
My answers remained.
I just wanna be by myself.
Its not that I dont love you anymore but I'm losing out on all my own good times and the things I should have been doing when Im not with you.
I make myself strong. I give myself the strength I want.
Wake up every morning and say Alhamdulilah that I've woken up this morning to seefor myself what He has in store for me.
Its just the little nitty-gritty things that Ive been missing out on and I wanna find it all by myself...
Anyway...Here's another thing to catch up on.
He's back. from 3 years ago.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
kenape awak emo sangat?.. break sua lar.. ahaks!!
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